Very few “reality” shows can be considered an inspiration but Dancing On Ice truly is. I’m not alone when I say it inspired me to put on skates for the first time and take up figure skating. Thank you for the thrills, the spills and all the laughs. I wasn’t around when Torvill and Dean performed the Bolero at the ‘84 Olympics but thanks to this show I was able to understand how inspirational they were and still are. I know how much I’m going to miss this show and how much it meant to me. I just hope it meant as much to others as it did to me. Thank you Dancing On Ice for a fantastic 9 years.
So I’ve noticed myself thinking about you a lot, you’re always creeping into my mind every couple of days or so. No that’s a lie, I think about you at least once every day. Believe it or not I don’t think about you as much as I used to, but I’m still doing it too much. Every time I do think about you I just get really bitter and end up hating everything. It’s making me a bitter person overall and I don’t like who I’m becoming because of it. Do I blame you? No because you don’t have complete power over my emotions.
Recently I’ve began thinking that what happened between us was a mistake. Not an “oh my god what did I ever see in him?” mistake, more in the sense that I could have dealt with the situation better. Is it my fault that we ended up how we did because I didn’t push for a relationship rather than just sex? Probably. You said you wanted something casual and asked if I was ok with that. Of course I wasn’t but I was so desperate for some sort of affection that I said yes and now I wish I’d dealt with the whole thing differently. I’ve been pondering over the idea that if we had tried to work towards a relationship then we could have made it work. I guess we’ll just never know how well it’d have panned out.